Welcome To My Life.

Do you ever wish you could be a kid again? Going to school, just to see your friends, play with them, do simple maths and do a whole lot of colouring. After school, coming back home and watching cartoons and in the evenings going out to play with the other kids from the neighbourhood or even playing with your brothers or sisters. Then during the nights, having dinner, eating whatever you like not worrying about putting on any weight, spending time with your family and going to bed early without any worries or problems. We used to be so carefree. I really wish I could be a kid again. I wonder why we had to grow up and face all sorts of problems. Now life is just unbearable. I'm hating my life to the max. I miss my high school friends, my dad, my mom and most especially my dear brother who is in UK. I hate college life. I used to think that college life is all about having fun and all, but BOYYYY was I wrong! Its so sucky. Full of assignments and shitty presentations and snobbish rich kids and somewhat moody lecturers. Ugghh! I miss home and I want to go home so bad. I wish I could just chuck everything and run back and live in the comforts of my own home, and have my moms cooking instead of eating yucky outside food. I wish I appreciated home when I still could. I miss my mom driving me around here and there. I miss sitting at the dining table and having long chats with my whole family. I miss talking and spending time with my brother. I miss going shopping with my mom. I miss going to school just to see my friends and yak with them from the time I go to school till school ends. I miss getting into trouble with teachers. Basically, I miss the life I used to have. Currently, everything is new to me. I have to make my own decisions, do everything for myself, be independent, wake up all by myself to the fugly sound of my alarm. Why do we even have to grow up? Separations are so hurtful. Everytime someone I love leaves me a part of me becomes empty and its getting emptier and emptier day by day. I have made some new friends in college, they are nice and all but they can never replace the friends I used to have back then. They understand exactly how I feel just by looking at my pathetic expressions. Sighhs. I could just cry and cry and cry thinking about my younger days. How I miss it so bloody much! I have no one to talk to now. My life her is so boring and lonely. Its like no one understands me. I talk to m mom and as usual she never makes me feel any better. I try talking to my boyfriend and it somehow turns into a fight but I STILL LOVE YOU B. And the only person who always knows the perfect way to make me feel better is my brother and I have no idea where he has been MIA-ing. I miss him so bloody much. HAIHHS. I had a Chemistry test today which I guarantee I failed. I did so badly I should kill myself. Now tomorrow there's Computer Science test. Which is gonna be another headache. I hope I do better for that one or not I'm doomed for life. Dear GOD PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME. I'm in dire need of help. Thanks. I hope tomorrow would be a better day for me. And I hope my life would not be so lame anymore. Good night people who actually read my blog.

BROTHER AND I, The world's greatest brother and he could be the worst if he wants to ; )
AMMA AND I, I love you so very much ma, though sometimes you don't understand me, you are the best!
CLOSEST FRIENDS IN HIGH SCHOOL TILL NOW, Love ya'll to bits!